who I'm I?

First of all I am almost forty and really wants to know,,I born in the West Indies on the Island of Grenada where most of my horror began.  A beautiful paradise but did I get a taste of that?? not really,,but a closely related family member let me in on the fact that I was the product of a rape child. And is very thankful for my mother who chose to have her baby as apposed to aborting me, as advised.  My father I only met three times in my life, with the first being around age eleven.  There are hardly any pleasant memories of my childhood but, a whole lot of horrible ones.  Especially the ones surrounding the abuses I endured.  I decided to blog as a way of getting all the confusion out and put me together at last.